Dancing in the Dark

I think this man was singing that song to me. I wasn't trying to pay it any mind because his girl's back was turned and I frown on that.

But, the phrase had me thinking...who really dances in the dark?

Is that a euphemism? Perhaps for love. Perhaps...

For life?

We're all dancing in the dark looking for our partners, hoping to catch the rhythm, praying no one sees us fumble, and that eventually, we will be comfortable enough to be the same person...goofy grin in the light.

All we do is go dancing in the dark...
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Optimism Aside...

Sometimes, being black in Corporate America, no matter how hard I try, I feel like a round peg in a square hole.

Just an observation....

A New Woman

Firstly, I want so say thank you for all your support and positive energy. I'm always the beacon of light in friends' lives - the one who assures them it will be ok, the one who tells them it will work out, and who reminds them that they're fantastic...even when they might not be at that moment. I always wondered who will be my beacon when I need it?

Well, you guys.

Many thanks!

I got my hair done tonight. I left work early without telling my supervisor and ran around to find a place that would take me at 7:45pm. Luckily, no one refuses money anymore...I found someone.
I was trying to hold off until my bday to get my hair done...I wanted to hold on to my money. I figured...eff the money, when I saw myself in the mirror today at work. My hair was slicked back with the waves of needing a relaxer in the front of my head...the back was sticking up because its growing out and awkward. I had no make-up and I have small bags, carry-ons, under my eyes from not sleeping well. I have a make-up blog, yet I haven't worn make-up in a week...maybe more.

And I said....snap out of it, Nina. You look how you feel and you must feel like shit.

I feel like my old self again. Optimistic. Ready to face the world.

I kinda look like Monica from her Don't Take it Personal days....

Amazing what a haircut and really looking in the mirror will do.

*sigh*
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Omg!

You gotta watch this shit!

SMH

http://www.blackbottom.com/watch.php?v=uDvdMGxFpzw

blogger is effin up

Jae Spenc, Mr. Socialight..I'm trying to read your blogs..but since the background is black..I can't


Nina's sad...


carry on!

Trudging On

I've applied for 25 jobs since Monday. I've got 2 scam responses. 1 interview.

I'm siked! But not putting my hopes up...I just can't and get let down.

Last night, I thought I had the perfect shade of orange-yellow for my dining room...it looks like a school bus peed on my walls. Waste of $30.

Then, I thought I had a good quality meal for $9. Why, oh why, does Boston Market give you a plate with a flimsy plastic cover on it and call it a to-go meal? Noooo!!! By the time I got to the train, the cover was completely off, the corn and mac n cheese were mixed together in the bottom of the plate. And to make matters worse...as I was trying to fix it, I sat my drink on the seat on the train. The train jerked. The drink spilled, ruining a row of seating for about 10 people.

Perfect.

I really want to blog good shit. Like..I bought the perfect shade of paint. Looks great. Had a nicely balanced meal for $5. Amazing sex with a man who read me Kate Chopin after and baked cookies. Got a new job that pays me $50k a year for being me. Lovely. But, sadly all I have is my reality...
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Overextended

At moments, I feel so overwhelmed. I have 2 blogs, a home improvement project, a beauty class I'm giving (gratis for now), and I've joined an initiative to help kids do better in school.
Oh yea, I'm looking for another job, too.

Its a good thing I don't need or what a boyfriend right now. I just don't want to stretch myself anymore for anyone.

I feel like all these things are void fillers for what I don't have. Giving up one is like oh so hard...I'm in it, now.

Wish me luck!

Update on BFF: The bleeding stopped a while ago, but against my advice, she cancelled her GYN appt for yesterday and rescheduled for 2/23. She did speak to a nurse and the nurse said that abnormal bleeding is a side effect of taking EC. So....ummm, I still wanted her to keep her appointment but...I can't force the girl. We'll see what happens next month
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