Every time I sit down and say, "Ok, today, I will blog;" my eyelids get heavy and it feels like the weight of my day begins to weigh heavily on me.
Let me see if I can update you on my life as best as I can:
Men
Trini and I have had sex twice. Oh, yes, I'm a little minx. Mainly, schedule conflicts keep us off of each other and some other issues have me recently wanting to be hands off.
Sex with Trini is awesome. He knows what he's doing and he does it well....but....I have been having some bleeding issues. As in, I start to bleed when he's penetrating me. Soooooo...that puts a real downer on things. He was turned-off. I was worried. I went to the doctor. Side note: Waiting for the genitals doctor, they play those awful videos about HIV. The one that struck me the most was the lady who was living with her boyfriend for 4 years and she went to the doctor for a routine check-up and they did an HIV test and it came back positive. She had to work up the courage to tell her boyfriend and he said that he had AIDS for 8 years. I get tested before and after every partner and usually, I get tested on December 1st (World AIDS Day) and I always use condoms and such but I was SHOOK. Condoms break, tests fail, et cetera....but of course, I was negative. All other STD tests were negative but a Pap smear was done. My cervix was red. The doctor said it could just be irritated from the friction and is 90% sure its not an STD. And umm...the doctor was BFF's mom. BFF's mom studied at Northwestern and Columbia and has been practicing medicine for my entire life. It was weird at first to drop trou...but she was super gentle quick and gave me a hug after. So, I've been dragging my feet a bit to have sex with Trini now because if I start bleeding again, it would just be SOOOOOO draining! It's enough for me to not want to be celibate anymore.
Speaking of Trini....
Yesterday, I called him randomly during the course of my day.
Me: Hey boo. What are you up to?
Trini: Just leaving therapy.
Me: Therapy?
Trini: Yes. we're in marriage counseling.
I swear all of the air left my body as I heard that. I understand why he's in marriage counseling. No one wants to be divorced. As he told me, she got everything in the settlement of the divorce. It has been difficult and he doesn't want to not be married but....DAMN! So, yes...part of me...was like RUN Nina. Run for your life! The other part was like...at least he's honest. Most dudes would gas you and make you think things are one way but they are totally different and then drop you once they have what they want.
Oy! I'm a little disappointed but I already knew what I was getting myself into so I should really just buck up and find someone else which brings me to....
Stark. Not sure if its even worth mentioning but I met this dude online. He talked the talk boyyyyy. he was so cute and funny, snarky and witty. He totally decided to fall off thef ace of the Earth. Part of me is like...he's not the man for you if he did thart but ugh...imagine if you founf someone you click with in most ways and then boom...he drops you. I'm super sick of dating. I just want God to reveal my husband to me in a dream or something.
Guess who's bzack?? DK!
Posts on DK
He invited me to dinner which ended with me kissing him so passionately, he got a hard-on and wanted to come back home with me. What can I say? I am an amazing kisser. LOL
I don't sleep with more than one person at a time, so I said no. We've been texting back and forth. Its been really casual. I used to be really into him. Now I'm like "meh."
I just need some fresh meat.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Inmate #388201
Brother Wise is in prison or jail. I don't know the difference.
His son is about 4 years old. He hasn't been with the mother of his child in about 3 years. However, he like any other father wants to know the type of dudes she's bringing around his kid. The girl lied to him, saying she wasn't seeing anyone but he would see the same car in her driveway repeatedly. One day, he came by to pick up his son. He saw the car there and he knew the dude was there so he thought, "Great! I get to meet this guy." This dude runs out the back door.
Brother Wise is not a physically intimidating man. He is about 5ft5 inches. He does have some weight on him but seriously, at one point, I thought I could take him myself...but I think I could take most people. But that is a bitch move.
Two weeks later, the same thing happens except, BW caught him and beat him up and stabbed him 5 times. The most gentle man that I know was arrested on assault and was given a year in prison.When he told me this, I was in pure shock. Its like learning that care bears and pandas eat babies. I will write to him. I am not sure what to talk about or to say but I feel like as a friend, if I go down on an assault charge - which could happen to anyone if pushed- I'd want everyone to write me.
That shhhh crayy.
His son is about 4 years old. He hasn't been with the mother of his child in about 3 years. However, he like any other father wants to know the type of dudes she's bringing around his kid. The girl lied to him, saying she wasn't seeing anyone but he would see the same car in her driveway repeatedly. One day, he came by to pick up his son. He saw the car there and he knew the dude was there so he thought, "Great! I get to meet this guy." This dude runs out the back door.
Brother Wise is not a physically intimidating man. He is about 5ft5 inches. He does have some weight on him but seriously, at one point, I thought I could take him myself...but I think I could take most people. But that is a bitch move.
Two weeks later, the same thing happens except, BW caught him and beat him up and stabbed him 5 times. The most gentle man that I know was arrested on assault and was given a year in prison.When he told me this, I was in pure shock. Its like learning that care bears and pandas eat babies. I will write to him. I am not sure what to talk about or to say but I feel like as a friend, if I go down on an assault charge - which could happen to anyone if pushed- I'd want everyone to write me.
That shhhh crayy.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Trouble
There is an awkward moment when you want to tell a story on your blog and you can't because you haven't blogged in a while and there's a backstory and you have to get through that before you can get to what you really want to say and you kick yourself for not blogging when you should have.
And you just go...
FUCK! ME!
There is also a moment after you have been celibate for over a year where you question your actions, your sincerity for Jesus and why you're voluntarily running away from the peen.
You repeatedly ask yourself...What is wrong with you?
You don't really think about sex besides it being a foreign concept once you possibly find someone you could sex it up with but that seems far off until you meet someone like...Trini.
Can I say that I am super proud of myself for not being a whore and smanging him yet.....although, if it were under my control, I'd have sexed him last weekend and will sex him this week sometime, the fact that it hasn't happened yet and we've been talking and dating and enjoying each other's company for 4 months...puts a smile on my face. Seeing as most women give up the drawls after 2 weeks, using my informal poll of just talking to my coworkers.
And yes...the 4th was my birthday and I didn't get any birthday love. So depressing!
Ahhh...I'm all over the place.
Last night, I had a wonderful time with Trini although it didn't really start out that way.
We agreed the night before that we would see each other Friday night. I wanted to have sexy time because I am a huge lust bucket right now. Turns out, I was itching for some loving because I was super hormonal with my period. So, I wake up all bloody and angry. Trini's brother was coming into town that night and he had to pick him up from the airport around 7:30. His brother wanted to go and have drinks and Trini actually invited me. (I was kinda stoked). We would meet up around 9/9:30. Me knowing black folks and time, I started getting ready at 9:30pm. I looked for a cute outfit, my heels, tight jeans, biker jacket and I curled my hair.
At 10:30, he still hadn't solidified plans with me and I was getting hot. His brother went ghost on him and he wanted to wait to speak to him before we went anywhere. I had to be at church at 9am this morning and thus, was disinterested in waiting on his brother and was more interested in being held, kissed and hugged up on.
Anywho, he finally picks me up at 11:15 and we go cruising around my neighborhood for some place to go. Sidenote:BFF told me to text her his license plate number and the make and model of his car plus his address. After the whole Nigerian thing, she has become super protective of me. And...I got only half of his plate memorized.
SO, we go to this random place that I would never go into alone and it is poppin. Good music. Good food. Random people in there. Older folks 2stepping. Young folks Dougie-ing.
We ate some wings and talked about what we both want. He told me (again) he just wants companionship and good sex. I told him in plain language, that's okay for right now but eventually, I want a husband and some kids. He understands where I'm coming from and I thanked him for his honesty. He asked me to dance. We did some dancing where he twirled me and we danced close like we were at prom. He leaned in and kissed me and...it.was.on from there.
Some wild woman came out of me and I had him against the wall with my tongue in his mouth, grinding on him. I was all over him. Yo...his arms. His abs...his body is amazing. I was touching him and kissing his neck and biting on his ear. He stopped and looked at me and said: "Who are you? This is not the same girl I've been talking to all this time. Who is this woman?"
I just smiled. Something in me triggered on and it is going to be hard to turn it off.
"You're not going home tonight. You're coming to my place. In the morning, you're calling out of work."
That was the sexiest thing I've heard from a man in a long while.
I had to not so delicately remind him of my period. He was not fazed. He said we'd have to reschedule but I'm in trouble.
I love trouble.
He held me close. He grabbed my booty. I held my head back as he bit my neck. Whew! We started dirty talking each other. Soon we looked at the clock and it was 2am. He dropped me off home. He sent me some pictures of what he's working with. My oh my!
I am in trouble.
I love trouble.
And you just go...
FUCK! ME!
There is also a moment after you have been celibate for over a year where you question your actions, your sincerity for Jesus and why you're voluntarily running away from the peen.
You repeatedly ask yourself...What is wrong with you?
You don't really think about sex besides it being a foreign concept once you possibly find someone you could sex it up with but that seems far off until you meet someone like...Trini.
Can I say that I am super proud of myself for not being a whore and smanging him yet.....although, if it were under my control, I'd have sexed him last weekend and will sex him this week sometime, the fact that it hasn't happened yet and we've been talking and dating and enjoying each other's company for 4 months...puts a smile on my face. Seeing as most women give up the drawls after 2 weeks, using my informal poll of just talking to my coworkers.
And yes...the 4th was my birthday and I didn't get any birthday love. So depressing!
Ahhh...I'm all over the place.
Last night, I had a wonderful time with Trini although it didn't really start out that way.
We agreed the night before that we would see each other Friday night. I wanted to have sexy time because I am a huge lust bucket right now. Turns out, I was itching for some loving because I was super hormonal with my period. So, I wake up all bloody and angry. Trini's brother was coming into town that night and he had to pick him up from the airport around 7:30. His brother wanted to go and have drinks and Trini actually invited me. (I was kinda stoked). We would meet up around 9/9:30. Me knowing black folks and time, I started getting ready at 9:30pm. I looked for a cute outfit, my heels, tight jeans, biker jacket and I curled my hair.
At 10:30, he still hadn't solidified plans with me and I was getting hot. His brother went ghost on him and he wanted to wait to speak to him before we went anywhere. I had to be at church at 9am this morning and thus, was disinterested in waiting on his brother and was more interested in being held, kissed and hugged up on.
Anywho, he finally picks me up at 11:15 and we go cruising around my neighborhood for some place to go. Sidenote:BFF told me to text her his license plate number and the make and model of his car plus his address. After the whole Nigerian thing, she has become super protective of me. And...I got only half of his plate memorized.
SO, we go to this random place that I would never go into alone and it is poppin. Good music. Good food. Random people in there. Older folks 2stepping. Young folks Dougie-ing.
We ate some wings and talked about what we both want. He told me (again) he just wants companionship and good sex. I told him in plain language, that's okay for right now but eventually, I want a husband and some kids. He understands where I'm coming from and I thanked him for his honesty. He asked me to dance. We did some dancing where he twirled me and we danced close like we were at prom. He leaned in and kissed me and...it.was.on from there.
Some wild woman came out of me and I had him against the wall with my tongue in his mouth, grinding on him. I was all over him. Yo...his arms. His abs...his body is amazing. I was touching him and kissing his neck and biting on his ear. He stopped and looked at me and said: "Who are you? This is not the same girl I've been talking to all this time. Who is this woman?"
I just smiled. Something in me triggered on and it is going to be hard to turn it off.
"You're not going home tonight. You're coming to my place. In the morning, you're calling out of work."
That was the sexiest thing I've heard from a man in a long while.
I had to not so delicately remind him of my period. He was not fazed. He said we'd have to reschedule but I'm in trouble.
I love trouble.
He held me close. He grabbed my booty. I held my head back as he bit my neck. Whew! We started dirty talking each other. Soon we looked at the clock and it was 2am. He dropped me off home. He sent me some pictures of what he's working with. My oh my!
I am in trouble.
I love trouble.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Grrrrrrrrrrr
Today:
Work was slow. We're expected to make $1000 each every day this week. I made $186.
One of the chicks at work played rock music ALL.MORNING.LONG. Then switched to Lady Gaga and Madonna. Imagine listening to the same 4 songs every day for the past 3 weeks.
I bought weave hair 2 weeks ago so I could manage getting my hair done without it being SO MUCH MONEY. After work, I was tired but decided to go get my hair done (an hour away on the other side of Brooklyn on a cold ass day) only for my hairstylist to tell me my hair sucks and i should by a different brand because its not going to take well to heat. She then showed me how it would react to a curling iron and it melted. So now, I have to buy new hair.
Called Trini to vent about my hair and he called me out on wearing wigs. I don't know how I feel about it.
Today was super shitty and I pray tomorrow will be better. Its my birthday week after all.
Work was slow. We're expected to make $1000 each every day this week. I made $186.
One of the chicks at work played rock music ALL.MORNING.LONG. Then switched to Lady Gaga and Madonna. Imagine listening to the same 4 songs every day for the past 3 weeks.
I bought weave hair 2 weeks ago so I could manage getting my hair done without it being SO MUCH MONEY. After work, I was tired but decided to go get my hair done (an hour away on the other side of Brooklyn on a cold ass day) only for my hairstylist to tell me my hair sucks and i should by a different brand because its not going to take well to heat. She then showed me how it would react to a curling iron and it melted. So now, I have to buy new hair.
Called Trini to vent about my hair and he called me out on wearing wigs. I don't know how I feel about it.
Today was super shitty and I pray tomorrow will be better. Its my birthday week after all.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Tagged
I got tagged by Starrla and Gorgeous a few days ago but since I'm awesome, it takes me a minute to blog.
Rules:
1.You must post 11 random things yourself.
2.Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
3.Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4.Go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
Let's get started!
11 Random Facts About Me:
1. I talk out loud to myself when I'm alone....as if I may be talking to another person. It is quite disturbing (even to me)
2. I am SUPER afraid of having feminine odor. I check myself 2-3x a day and if I'm with my dude, fuhgetaboudit!
3. I spend a lot of time in my own head.
4. I grew up being very picky about food. I've tried to rectify that in my adulthood but that hasn't happened yet.
5. I feel as though I'm socially awkward half of the time.
6. Only Wynsters knows about this personal blog. All my other friends (who see me on a consistent basis) are clueless. I would love to keep it that way.
7. I am a very messy person in the house but my outer appearance is always meticulously put together. I'm desperately trying to change that. It is an uphill struggle.
8. I can sit in silence for hours whether by myself or with other people. This seems to make others very nervous when they're around me for some reason. This fact has been magnified by the fact that at work, there is always loud music playing and people talking ALL DAY. I crave silence when I'm at home.
9. I'm obsessed with Europe.
10. I would love the opportunity to be a TV anchor.
11. I always wonder how I'm being perceived by other people but I would never really ask.
Questions from Starrla
1. What inspires you?
a. What inspires me to be a makeup artist? Beauty. I see it in everything I look at and wish to create it in everything I do. b. What inspires me to keep keeping on? Fear of failure. I don't ever want to fail at anything and so that pushes me to persevere.
2. What is your earliest childhood memory?
My mom's funeral. I was 3 years old and I remember the burgundy carpet of the funeral home. Tons of people sitting down. Someone was wearing a blue jacquard shirt. My mom was in her casket. She was very dark-skinned with a black Jehri curl. I remember seeing angels around her singing. (It might have been the cheesy 80's funeral home background mural or real angels...what do I know?)
3. What is your favorite thing to cook/eat?
My favorite thing to cook is spaghetti with sweet sausage and spinach. Meal in 20 minutes. My favorite thing to eat is fried chicken with macaroni and cheese and collard greens. (so Negro!)
4. What's the name of your favorite book?
I have many favorites. The ones that stand out are: The Awakening by Kate Chopin, Wild Seed by Octavia Butler, A Love Noire/Hunger by Erica Simone Turnipseed, Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Berg, The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenger and new favorite is: The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes by Sir Conan Boyle.
5. Do you remember your first love?
YES! It wasn't that long ago...he he
6. What is your dream job?
It used to be "makeup artist" and I have that. I'm now thinking....teacher.
7. Do you have any phobias?
SNAKES!
8. If you had to lose one of your five senses, which one would it be?
We think we only have 5 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sense ) we have more than that...so I'm going to cheat and say temperature. If I didn't feel cold or hot that would be cool....but if I HAD to lose of the main 5, I would say touch.
9. Are you left handed or right handed?
Right-handed.
10. Do you have any hidden talent?
I can whistle. (Lol) No, not really.
11. If you won $500,000 what would you do with it?
Pay off my debt and go back to school. College cost about a half a mill these days...smh
Gorgeous Pudding's Questions:
1. Are you currently doing what you want to do in life?
Yes and no. I love what I do. It's what I thought I wanted by now those wants are changing.
2. What is your absolute favorite way to have fun?
Being with people that make me laugh. I love to go out to eat and just be with good people. THAT is fun.
3. How many siblings do you have and what birth order are you?
8 siblings and I'm the BABY. (yea!)
4. What's your fantasy car.
Corvette. Blame Barbie! lol
5. Where is the last place you vacationed?
Texas. (Heyyy Trish!)
6. Do you wear jewelry and do you prefer gold or silver!
I never really wear anything. I prefer silver.
7. What's the best thing you've ever eaten?
My mom's lasagna.
8. What colors is your bathroom decorated with?
Blue, white and pink.
9. How often do you exercise?
Not often. :(
10. Do you want children? If you have children do you want more?
Yes! I would love a little person but they are hard work. I want the man first.
11. What is your least favorite food? If you had to eat it for 1 month for a million dollars could you?
Lima beans! Are we talking about it being the only things I eat or I would have to have a spoonful every day for a month???
Tagging:
Trish at Book of Me
Tiff at Caress the Fro
Monique at Unscripted Musings
Wynsters! (email me the answers)
Sunshine! (I checked your blog but am not sure if its active...comment please)
Re-tagging Starrla and Gorgeous Pudding just cuz I want them to answer my questions too. You don't have to post 11 more random facts.
Questions for Tagged Folks:
1. If you could change one decision you made in your life, what would it be?
2. Who is your favorite music artist?
3. If you could wake up tomorrow and were able to speak another language, what would it be?
4. Who's your celebrity crush?
5. Do you have any frenemies?
6. Have you ever been offered money or some other favor for a sexual act?
7. Have you ever had a one night stand?
8. If you could pet any animal without fear of being eaten or poisoned, what would it be?
9. What color describes your mood right now and why?
10. What was one thing you had to overcome to get to where you are in life right now?
11. What are your big hopes for the future?
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Rules:
1.You must post 11 random things yourself.
2.Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
3.Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4.Go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
Let's get started!
11 Random Facts About Me:
1. I talk out loud to myself when I'm alone....as if I may be talking to another person. It is quite disturbing (even to me)
2. I am SUPER afraid of having feminine odor. I check myself 2-3x a day and if I'm with my dude, fuhgetaboudit!
3. I spend a lot of time in my own head.
4. I grew up being very picky about food. I've tried to rectify that in my adulthood but that hasn't happened yet.
5. I feel as though I'm socially awkward half of the time.
6. Only Wynsters knows about this personal blog. All my other friends (who see me on a consistent basis) are clueless. I would love to keep it that way.
7. I am a very messy person in the house but my outer appearance is always meticulously put together. I'm desperately trying to change that. It is an uphill struggle.
8. I can sit in silence for hours whether by myself or with other people. This seems to make others very nervous when they're around me for some reason. This fact has been magnified by the fact that at work, there is always loud music playing and people talking ALL DAY. I crave silence when I'm at home.
9. I'm obsessed with Europe.
10. I would love the opportunity to be a TV anchor.
11. I always wonder how I'm being perceived by other people but I would never really ask.
Questions from Starrla
1. What inspires you?
a. What inspires me to be a makeup artist? Beauty. I see it in everything I look at and wish to create it in everything I do. b. What inspires me to keep keeping on? Fear of failure. I don't ever want to fail at anything and so that pushes me to persevere.
2. What is your earliest childhood memory?
My mom's funeral. I was 3 years old and I remember the burgundy carpet of the funeral home. Tons of people sitting down. Someone was wearing a blue jacquard shirt. My mom was in her casket. She was very dark-skinned with a black Jehri curl. I remember seeing angels around her singing. (It might have been the cheesy 80's funeral home background mural or real angels...what do I know?)
3. What is your favorite thing to cook/eat?
My favorite thing to cook is spaghetti with sweet sausage and spinach. Meal in 20 minutes. My favorite thing to eat is fried chicken with macaroni and cheese and collard greens. (so Negro!)
4. What's the name of your favorite book?
I have many favorites. The ones that stand out are: The Awakening by Kate Chopin, Wild Seed by Octavia Butler, A Love Noire/Hunger by Erica Simone Turnipseed, Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Berg, The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenger and new favorite is: The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes by Sir Conan Boyle.
5. Do you remember your first love?
YES! It wasn't that long ago...he he
6. What is your dream job?
It used to be "makeup artist" and I have that. I'm now thinking....teacher.
7. Do you have any phobias?
SNAKES!
8. If you had to lose one of your five senses, which one would it be?
We think we only have 5 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sense ) we have more than that...so I'm going to cheat and say temperature. If I didn't feel cold or hot that would be cool....but if I HAD to lose of the main 5, I would say touch.
9. Are you left handed or right handed?
Right-handed.
10. Do you have any hidden talent?
I can whistle. (Lol) No, not really.
11. If you won $500,000 what would you do with it?
Pay off my debt and go back to school. College cost about a half a mill these days...smh
Gorgeous Pudding's Questions:
1. Are you currently doing what you want to do in life?
Yes and no. I love what I do. It's what I thought I wanted by now those wants are changing.
2. What is your absolute favorite way to have fun?
Being with people that make me laugh. I love to go out to eat and just be with good people. THAT is fun.
3. How many siblings do you have and what birth order are you?
8 siblings and I'm the BABY. (yea!)
4. What's your fantasy car.
Corvette. Blame Barbie! lol
5. Where is the last place you vacationed?
Texas. (Heyyy Trish!)
6. Do you wear jewelry and do you prefer gold or silver!
I never really wear anything. I prefer silver.
7. What's the best thing you've ever eaten?
My mom's lasagna.
8. What colors is your bathroom decorated with?
Blue, white and pink.
9. How often do you exercise?
Not often. :(
10. Do you want children? If you have children do you want more?
Yes! I would love a little person but they are hard work. I want the man first.
11. What is your least favorite food? If you had to eat it for 1 month for a million dollars could you?
Lima beans! Are we talking about it being the only things I eat or I would have to have a spoonful every day for a month???
Tagging:
Trish at Book of Me
Tiff at Caress the Fro
Monique at Unscripted Musings
Wynsters! (email me the answers)
Sunshine! (I checked your blog but am not sure if its active...comment please)
Re-tagging Starrla and Gorgeous Pudding just cuz I want them to answer my questions too. You don't have to post 11 more random facts.
Questions for Tagged Folks:
1. If you could change one decision you made in your life, what would it be?
2. Who is your favorite music artist?
3. If you could wake up tomorrow and were able to speak another language, what would it be?
4. Who's your celebrity crush?
5. Do you have any frenemies?
6. Have you ever been offered money or some other favor for a sexual act?
7. Have you ever had a one night stand?
8. If you could pet any animal without fear of being eaten or poisoned, what would it be?
9. What color describes your mood right now and why?
10. What was one thing you had to overcome to get to where you are in life right now?
11. What are your big hopes for the future?
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Monday, January 23, 2012
Someone Like You
I went on a movie date last night with Trini. The plan was for me to get off work at 7 and meet him at the theatre at 7:30. When I got there, he was running behind....so, it ass me and the ((female) ticket-taker making small talk. He had me waiting for like 20 minutes. When he came up...we hugged and he apologized for being late.
TT: (to me) Ohhhh, you were waiting on him?
Me: Mmmmhmmmm
Trini: Ya'll were talking about me?
Me: Of course not.
TT: I can't believe you kept her waiting!
Trini: See, what had happened was....I was here earlier so....in an essence, I was waiting on her.
TT: I don't think I should let you in. You don't deserve her company....making her wait like that.
Me: She has a point there
Trini: You're supposed to be on my side!
Me: *shrugs*
Trini: You want me to leave?
Me: No....
TT: We'll let you slide this time. Make sure it doesn't happen again..
(Did I mention....I don't know this woman from Adam.)
HILARITY
We get our seats. He goes down to the concession stand. He comes back up and says to me...
Trini: Ummmm.....that lady might give you a funny look when we leave.
Me: Why?
Trini: I told her you kicked me out the theatre with no coat ir hat or anything because I was late. I said, "I told her it wouldn't happen again but she wouldn't listen." So, I'm hoping this soda and popcorn will help my case.
I laughed so loud! Who does that?
Haywire was a good movie. I'm going to look up the actress. They were hitting her like a man. I have to see if the stunts were done by her.
When we left the theatre, the ticket-taker gave me a handshake and said good job. He gasped.
Lol.
To be continued......
TT: (to me) Ohhhh, you were waiting on him?
Me: Mmmmhmmmm
Trini: Ya'll were talking about me?
Me: Of course not.
TT: I can't believe you kept her waiting!
Trini: See, what had happened was....I was here earlier so....in an essence, I was waiting on her.
TT: I don't think I should let you in. You don't deserve her company....making her wait like that.
Me: She has a point there
Trini: You're supposed to be on my side!
Me: *shrugs*
Trini: You want me to leave?
Me: No....
TT: We'll let you slide this time. Make sure it doesn't happen again..
(Did I mention....I don't know this woman from Adam.)
HILARITY
We get our seats. He goes down to the concession stand. He comes back up and says to me...
Trini: Ummmm.....that lady might give you a funny look when we leave.
Me: Why?
Trini: I told her you kicked me out the theatre with no coat ir hat or anything because I was late. I said, "I told her it wouldn't happen again but she wouldn't listen." So, I'm hoping this soda and popcorn will help my case.
I laughed so loud! Who does that?
Haywire was a good movie. I'm going to look up the actress. They were hitting her like a man. I have to see if the stunts were done by her.
When we left the theatre, the ticket-taker gave me a handshake and said good job. He gasped.
Lol.
To be continued......
Monday, January 16, 2012
Almost 26
I was talking to this kid at my job and he was just so....young.
The way he spoke to me...the things he said...I wondered about myself. If that were me years ago. All I could do was shake my head. I turned to my coworker and said, "How old do you think that kid is?"
"18/19"
"Geez...I'm old. 19 seems so...young now, doesn't it?"
"It sure does." (she's 29)
My birthday is on the 4th of February and the planning is well under way...I just have to organize the outfit and the hair and the actual itinerary for the day. Everyone in my immediate circle should know its my day and should begin to shower me with love and treat me like a princess.... :)
There's kind of a guy in the picture..but not really. His name is...Trini. I met him at the Marquez-Pacquiao fight party I forgot to blog about back in November. He was super cool and comfortable to talk to since my friends were kind of booed up for the night. He's 42. Had 3 kids, a boy and 2 girls (2 of which are twins, I forget which.) He was married for 12 yrs and has been divorced for about a year. His oldest is 11 and his youngest are 8. He works for the Board of Ed in Maintenance and works nights. We have been talking ever since the fight, frequently sending each other pics of ourselves, calling and texting. We haven't been on a date yet which kind of bugs me but not as much as you think it would. Our schedules are crazy and part of me thinks he's scared. When I bring it up, he says he hasn't been on a date with someone since he and his wife started dating 20 years ago. He says he feels as if he were in jail for the past 12 years and the whole dating world is different. He wants to take it slow. We're taking it slow. We're friends.
I like him, though.
He calls when he says he will. He always sends me messages to let me know he is thinking of me. He makes me smile and laugh. I feel secure with him (for the most part) I talked to my brother about him when I was in SC. He said he thinks its a bad idea to try and date him because of his age and the fact that he already has a family. He feels as though he wouldn't want to build anything with me because he's already done that. My bro has a point.
Today, me and Trini were talking. He said, "My friend tried to set me up on a blind date. I wasn't having that. I knew the lady was older than me. We kind of just talked first. She was telling me about dating. She's divorced after 20 years of marriage. I thought I was crying...I know she is really crying. Being divorced from the person I thought I would be with forever is really tough. I'm not even going to lie to you. Anyway, we had an interesting conversation. It's not going to go anywhere but she's good to talk to."....."I told my friend about you. I told her I met a nice young woman whom I have crazy chemistry with. She has a beautiful smile and is always laughing and easy to talk to. She's smart, ambitious and is mad cool. I'm not sure where this is going to go. I want to take this year to get myself together after this divorce. I need to figure out who I am. I would be kidding myself if I didn't say that I want female company...whether its a friends with benefits relationship or whatever. I wish I could be friends with someone, we chill, we laugh and talk and we know where we stand with each other." He flat out told me what he wants without putting it in black and white but it kind of is...
I told BFF this year... "I am not going to expect things from people that they either can't or are unwilling to give me."
Friends with benefits...ummmmm...been there done that...am ducking from the person that was with. I respect him for telling me straight up. I really don't expect someone who has been out of the scene for 20 years to want to be with the first girl he meets post-divorce. BUT, I do have to be honest with myself and what I want...I want to be someone's girlfriend, fiance, then wife. I want to have children and build a home together.
Where do we go from here???
He didn't definitively say that he want FWB with me. I haven't (successfully) had sex in a year. I say successfully because the little 5 mins with Aussie was aborted due to it being terribly painful and me bleeding a little bit after he tried to penetrate me with his giant penis. (lol)
Do I want to have sex? Hell yea. Is this an area of my life I should probably leave to God and have Him work it out? Yes. Is he sexy and do I want to jump him? Hell yea. Ultimately, I do want to take my time. Enjoy a friendship with him and see where it goes from there. I invited him to my birthday dinner. He told me he was jumping out the cake and sent me a half-naked picture of himself.
Two words: Geez Louise.
The way he spoke to me...the things he said...I wondered about myself. If that were me years ago. All I could do was shake my head. I turned to my coworker and said, "How old do you think that kid is?"
"18/19"
"Geez...I'm old. 19 seems so...young now, doesn't it?"
"It sure does." (she's 29)
My birthday is on the 4th of February and the planning is well under way...I just have to organize the outfit and the hair and the actual itinerary for the day. Everyone in my immediate circle should know its my day and should begin to shower me with love and treat me like a princess.... :)
There's kind of a guy in the picture..but not really. His name is...Trini. I met him at the Marquez-Pacquiao fight party I forgot to blog about back in November. He was super cool and comfortable to talk to since my friends were kind of booed up for the night. He's 42. Had 3 kids, a boy and 2 girls (2 of which are twins, I forget which.) He was married for 12 yrs and has been divorced for about a year. His oldest is 11 and his youngest are 8. He works for the Board of Ed in Maintenance and works nights. We have been talking ever since the fight, frequently sending each other pics of ourselves, calling and texting. We haven't been on a date yet which kind of bugs me but not as much as you think it would. Our schedules are crazy and part of me thinks he's scared. When I bring it up, he says he hasn't been on a date with someone since he and his wife started dating 20 years ago. He says he feels as if he were in jail for the past 12 years and the whole dating world is different. He wants to take it slow. We're taking it slow. We're friends.
I like him, though.
He calls when he says he will. He always sends me messages to let me know he is thinking of me. He makes me smile and laugh. I feel secure with him (for the most part) I talked to my brother about him when I was in SC. He said he thinks its a bad idea to try and date him because of his age and the fact that he already has a family. He feels as though he wouldn't want to build anything with me because he's already done that. My bro has a point.
Today, me and Trini were talking. He said, "My friend tried to set me up on a blind date. I wasn't having that. I knew the lady was older than me. We kind of just talked first. She was telling me about dating. She's divorced after 20 years of marriage. I thought I was crying...I know she is really crying. Being divorced from the person I thought I would be with forever is really tough. I'm not even going to lie to you. Anyway, we had an interesting conversation. It's not going to go anywhere but she's good to talk to."....."I told my friend about you. I told her I met a nice young woman whom I have crazy chemistry with. She has a beautiful smile and is always laughing and easy to talk to. She's smart, ambitious and is mad cool. I'm not sure where this is going to go. I want to take this year to get myself together after this divorce. I need to figure out who I am. I would be kidding myself if I didn't say that I want female company...whether its a friends with benefits relationship or whatever. I wish I could be friends with someone, we chill, we laugh and talk and we know where we stand with each other." He flat out told me what he wants without putting it in black and white but it kind of is...
I told BFF this year... "I am not going to expect things from people that they either can't or are unwilling to give me."
Friends with benefits...ummmmm...been there done that...am ducking from the person that was with. I respect him for telling me straight up. I really don't expect someone who has been out of the scene for 20 years to want to be with the first girl he meets post-divorce. BUT, I do have to be honest with myself and what I want...I want to be someone's girlfriend, fiance, then wife. I want to have children and build a home together.
Where do we go from here???
He didn't definitively say that he want FWB with me. I haven't (successfully) had sex in a year. I say successfully because the little 5 mins with Aussie was aborted due to it being terribly painful and me bleeding a little bit after he tried to penetrate me with his giant penis. (lol)
Do I want to have sex? Hell yea. Is this an area of my life I should probably leave to God and have Him work it out? Yes. Is he sexy and do I want to jump him? Hell yea. Ultimately, I do want to take my time. Enjoy a friendship with him and see where it goes from there. I invited him to my birthday dinner. He told me he was jumping out the cake and sent me a half-naked picture of himself.
Two words: Geez Louise.
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