Friday, March 23, 2012

How Ye Doin?

I'm sad.
I don't really feel as if my life has any meaning.
I'm lonely and trying to get close to people makes me feel lonelier.
I'm not sure what my purpose in life is and most of my time is spent wandering around.
I hate my job.
I don't like this city I live in and I feel lost.
All the time...I feel so lost but I look good so...everyone thinks I have it together.
Mostly, I need to be held.
I need someone to love on me for a good long time and tell me it will all be alright.

In the meantime, I'm just surviving.


K♥E♥N♥Y♥A said...

awww Nina- my heart is heavy for you ((hugs))- what I'm gonna say right now- please don't take offense-this is my own personal opinion and straight from my heart- You're at the age where this is NORMAL- It's painful but this is supposed to happen in order to make it to the other side- the dirty 30s and the fuck it 40s lol -

Twinkling 20s is a time for figuring out LIFE and figuring out yourself and where you fit in to the grand scheme of things-You're out their on your own- no adult supervision any more- no longer there to tell us yes or no- stop or go- dont do this - do this instead-- so you're going feel like you're spinning your wheels- like you dont know which way is up- youre gonna do some things that will make you later say- damn what was I thinking- I totally regret that- etc...this is gonna get long so I'm gonna post the rest on my blog...

K♥E♥N♥Y♥A said...

Ok i've finised writing my 'book' lol- I just wanted to add this just in case you dont make it over to my blog soon - you'll have the end of the post to read since its going straight to your email-

'Once you start to learn your likes and dislikes and no longer care what anyone else thinks of you even what YOU youreself thinks of a decision you made- your PURPOSE here will come to light- you'll be sitting one day thinking- 'some might think this is weird but I myself- well I LOVE IT- It's me and I'm ok with that- Imma do me' – and slowly you'll start to see the light- and of course as a final note- continue to pray- find some 'folk' (clique church grammar ' lol) that will pray with you- and for you- your blog family loves you dearly- I certainly say keep bloggin because thats your outlet- and no matter what you do/write we're going to be here to read your triumphs and your fuck ups because we've all been there – or will be there- even if we dont have the exact same incidents -we've learned the same life lessons-

I'd love on you if I was there with you- I'm a dayum good friend to have! lol

((hugs)) to you mama!!!! Keep ya chin up I PROMISE YOU IT GET'S BETTER!!! '