jagged little pill

soooooooooooooooooooooo
i had 2 days off back to back (for most people this is called the weekend...for me, it is called a rarity.)
it felt like freakin vacation!

monday night, my nephew (who is 10 years older than me) calls me to tell me his stepson is on his way from jamaica to nyc on a layover to bermuda and he needs some money.
me, loving my nephew so very much...i agree to take public transpo (!!!) an hour to the airport to go give his stepson some cash.

firstly, i have no idea what this boy looks like.
secondly, who travels with no money? an immature teenage...that's who!
thirdly, his flight got into ny at 1am. i'd been up since 6am for work and i was so tired, i was delirious!

i met up with him at around 2:30. i had to take the bus an hour home that late at night.
when i saw this kid, i wanted to punch him in the mouth.
i love how teens say they're grown but if he were really a grown man, he wouldn't be traveling with no money and having his parents (who were in IRELAND!) bail him out.

today, i went to the dermatologist.
my appointment was at 4:30. i saw the doctor at 7:30. i wanted to freakin scream!
i had no service on my phone and they had no wifi.
i was just waiting and waiting and waiting. it was mind-numbing.

so, check this....this "eczema" that has been wrecking shop on my skin and life is not really eczema.
it seems to be a fungal infection called tinea incognito.
it is a common fungus that is passed on from skin to skin contact that has been made worse by the use of topical steroids. the most common form of it is like ringworm in kids.

in english:
i had a fungus that i probably picked up from holding the pole on the train or from a customer i touched doing makeup or something simple. i went to the doctor. since i have a history of severe eczema that comes and goes, they prescribed a steroid cream. the steroids made the fungus worse and spread all over my body. when i stopped using the cream, the fungus became worse which made me think the cream was helping but it was only hurting me.

since having it, i did have sex with dk and i've done makeup on hundreds of people. he didn't get it. they don't have it. why? because once i had it, i was using the cream which made it non-contagious but highly reactive.

i feel like a disgusting human being right now.
i've had this fungus for at least a year.

he put me on 2 creams, an anti-fungal pill and an antihistamine for the itching. i also have to do bloodwork to see if this is affecting my internal organs/immune system. also.........the meds can affect my liver function so no drinking for me!

this is horrible!
when i googled it, i started to feel less bad though. this happens often because of the "incognito" in the name, it means the fungus basically doesn't show up like normal fungi so when treated like dermatitis (or eczema/psoriasis) it become a nasty bugger...i read a story of a woman who had this fungus for 13 years!!!! it basically looked like eczema covered her entire body! the pictures were intense, i didn't even read the rest of the story. but yea, the doctor tried to come down on me saying i've had eczema my whole life, i should've known this was different.

i was like....i didn't go to medical school. i trust people who've spent 8-10 years studying this and if they were wrong, how was i supposed to know different. slow ya role bud.
anyways.....i dropped off my prescription when i got to target at 9pm (!!!) and hopefully, they'll have it for me tomorrow or friday. i need this off off off! like yesterday.

crazy thing..this thing called life.

i can't tell anyone but ya'll and bff and twin. everyone else will judge me. lol

as for the book...i am at 70k words!! that translates to 7 chapters and 152 pages!!!  i am in the process of talking to a graphic designer about the cover art, securing the domain name for the website, working out how i want the site to look...i've created the twitter page for the book and am working out how i want to begin the social media promo....and i'm thinking about other means of promoting it (blog talk radio shows, pamper parties, flyers, postcards, etc.) this shit cray...it's not just about the art. my business taught me that. i want my book to be BIG. i need it to be big because all this stuff costs money. the money is coming from ME. i don't have a lot of it. i have 4 prescriptions to pay for and such.

i have other money woes too....another post for another (depressing) day....anywhosies...time for bed lovies!