Friday, June 20, 2008

G.reat Expe.ctations

If something turns out badly and it was the obvious outcome, most would ask: Well, what did you expect?

I'm asking myself that now.

As I crawled up the ladder at this job, every baby step of the way, I've been terrorised in different ways.

I finally thought that my boss and I had an understanding and I could just do my job and just breathe.

The moment I exhaled, I got the wind knocked out of me.

Former Bossan we'll call her Pinkett said, "I want to tell you something and I don't want you to get upset."

I conceded. I was having a good day.

"(Sweetest intern ever who I helped train) JU overheard (your boss)DK, (the worst micro manager)RG and CEO of the company AM talking and DK was blaming his inadequacies on you. AM was heard yelling at DK to fire you.

My jaw was on the floor. My eyes were bulging out of their sockets and its not only because I've stayed late every day for a month (except 2 days), not only did I work 6 days straight for the first 3 weeks, not only have I trained 2 people while I've been in this position, implemented policies and have covered ass well, I am totally blind-sighted.

What did I expect?

Decency and integrity.
Oh, and my work speaking for itself.

But now, I'm tired.

If I stay late, it is to milk the clock. I want my due. I am going to wait this storm and hopefully, I will get fired and a few of my nay sayers - I hope they take the job and know my struggle.

I will sit pretty and stress-free and collect unemployment and do what I am supposed to - write and make-up people's faces.

I already knew they didn't respect women's voices. I knew they didn't like blacks moving up, so really what did I expect.

4 comments:

jirzygurl said...

it's so not wrong to want to give others the benefit of the doubt... including employers. unfortunately, most are not worthy of that grace. now since you didn't actually hear this yourself, it may have been blown out of proportion but get your ducks lined up and know everything happens for a reason.

Chris said...

I mean, I thought my work spoke for itself, and it didn't at my old company...they just wanted you to suck ass there. Yeah, not kiss, but suck ass. And the more you sucked, the more you were paid. I'm so glad that I don't work there anymore. My new job actually cares about what I do...it's all going to work out, even if you don't see it.

Sha Boogie said...

Well, got dayum. Talk about a sucker punch to the gut. I'm not surprised - corporate people SUCK. I am forever a non-profit worker, lol. You think your doing great, just to find out they talking ish about you when your not looking...

Young woman on a journey said...

that is some f-ed up ish right there. really. How can you work in an environment where you can't trust people. Stories like this make me love my job even more. There is something about being in a team environment. and i hate to say it, but the people you work for...it never ceases to amaze me how the oppressed quickly become the oppressor...except us blacks. Don't know if that speaks wonder about us or not.