No Dial Tone

I changed my number today. I really didn't want to do it. I loved my old number. 'Twas really catchy and easy to remember but The Nigerian forced my hand.

I've been getting calls from blocked numbers at random times. 1 time I felt bold and picked up and the "person" hung up. Today, I was fed up! 4 calls starting at 8:30am and ending at 1pm. I'm like...what? Do you really think harassing me will change my mind? Will you annoy me into falling in love with you? I just don't get it and rather than calling him and cursing him out on a Sunday....I decided to change my number. It feels like the end of an era. Some really stupid boys have my number that should lose it anyway...so, its all for the best. I mean, I've only had the same number for 7 years. *sigh*

The entire house is having a mouse problem right now. Mom said she caught 8 baby mice in 1 week. I caught 2 last week and I saw 2 today. I'm sure my neighbor is having one...his house is really cluttered and, well, yea...I HATE rodents. Its driving me crazy! My house has never been cleaner but I have to make sure these rodents don't catch me slippin! I made the mistake of not having a garbage can with a lid. So, until I can get one, I've been taking any throw-away food outside every night. I forgot last night and it was a nightmare. I'm paranoid the mice are going to crawl on me in my sleep. I'm itchy. This is BAD but I know if I even mention an exterminator, I'm going to get my head chewed off.

I like making sure all the dishes are washed before bed and no food is out but HAVING to make sure of it every single night is a pain.

My birthday is in 3 weeks (roughly) and I'm low-key freaking out because I'm poor. I want a dress, shoes, mani-pedi, new wig and possibly a new blush from NARS or lipstick from MAC. Will I get it? No. I'm going to try though. and then, its like...how to celebrate? I'm going to be 25. It should mean something.

I also want to go on a date...no prospects in mind. How do you keep yourself from looking at every good-looking guy with a job as "potential?" I thought about getting myself a chastity ring...as a reminder that I'm saving it for marriage...that takes money and some balls that I don't have right now. No pun intended.

A friend was murdered last week. He was renovating an art gallery when someone came in during the middle of the day and shot him in the head and torso. No one knows why. He was awesome! He used to kick it to BFF really heavy. He was so sweet, funny, smart and nice. At 31, he's gone. Ridiculous!

I'm trying to let go of the thing with BFF. I am. Let's say, I took it the wrong way what she said...let's say, I'm over-analyzing it, blah blah. But, I'm seeing our relationship in a different light. I'm seeing her in a different light and I'm disgusted by what I'm seeing. She's using loving someone as an excuse to stay in a bad situation. My pastor said 2 things that stuck with me. Last week,he said..."Not having control over your desires and emotions, will allow you to be carried off by them." Today, he said, "It is possible to love someone and let them go."
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