Saturday, March 26, 2011

Part Two: Wrongdoings

Wynsters always tells me that if anyone wanted to find out my identity, its really not that difficult. I've toed the line of anon and public. I won't put my face on the sidebar because it really is hard to bare my soul and really SAY all the things I want to say if you're staring me in the "proverbial" face.

Even after I've met a lot of my blog friends in real life and some others I know have stumbled on to this blog, I have struggled with saying what I'm going through...long absences, anyone?

I had a thought the other day - what if BFF stumbled upon the blog? I don't talk about anyone more than I talk about her. Its not fair. Its not right to put her business out there.

And then I think about WHY I've done it...

1. Frustration
Her situation is ridiculous. I tell her. She agrees it is and stays. I've been venting here.

2. Shoulder Boulders
I was talking to a friend on gchat a while ago. He asked me how I was doing. I gave him maybe 5 lines about myself and said, "But enough about me, how are you?" He said..."Enough about you? We've spent 30 seconds on you. You're still the same. You need to work on being more selfish. We talked about this."

I take on everyone's burdens upon my shoulders as if its my job. Oddly enough, BFF kind of voiced it herself. Throughout her pregnancy, I've been doting. More doting than Punjabi...buuuut whatever. She said, "Ni, ain't bust that nut. You don't have to do everything for me." (She's a poet, lol)

True but I feel like I have to be there.

Anyways....I've been wrong in putting BFF's business on front street. You guys shouldn't know all the nuances of her relationship. I am going to work on focusing more on what this blog should be
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