I go through so many different emotions with DK, its kinda ridiculous. I had lunch with him on Friday. It was cool. I met a lady coworker of his and I swear that was the first time it hit me...wait...dude is in contact with other women throughout the day. This chick sees him, 200x more than me. First I got jealous and then angry.
He keeps telling me he'll make it up to me and that things will be better at the end of the summer but there is a big disconnect between him and me. Dude just got a 3rd job!!!!!!
I feel like the bad guy not being supportive knowing he has 3 jobs but I am not feeling support from him. When Rocky died, he text me. I was hoping for a phonecall. I chalked it up to him being a man and not really knowing. But now I am starting to feel resentful. I know I really shouldn't be but I do.
So...now I gotta think.
I feel like when he has it together, he will be awesome but he doesn't...not when it pertains to me.
Blame Starrla and her love languages post. Someone can show me they love me by communicating, spending quality time and being affectionate.
I always think about other people and how I can make their lives better. Now I have to think about me.