so, what happened?

i was too eager and i wanted things to be amazing right away
and that doesn't exactly happen.

i realized that i was always the one hitting him up, carrying conversations...if i didn't call/text him, we didn't speak. if i didn't insist we hang out..we didn't hang out.

and so..in the midst of what i now realize was a pms-induced fit of emotional-ness..(idk what to call it)

i text him:

i don't think you're really that into me. when i'm into someone, i want to know everything about them. i'm engaged. i ask questions. i don't get that from you.

and he said....

NOTHING.

and that was the end of that.

so FUCK HIM. no, really...fuck him.
my  work wife was like..i have a pattern which i like a guy and then like 2 weeks in, i get a little crazy and i'm like...where is this going and that scares them off.

which is true.

and i will work on that but even still...if someone questions if you're into them...you don't get scared off. you tell them something. and if you don't have anything to say, that answers their question and if there even IS a question, the answer is no.

so buh-bye lee.

asshole.