I'm in limbo...not in a comfortable spot professionally.
I literally cried this morning when I got off the phone with a bill collector asking me to pay them $50 a paycheck to pay off a $3,000 credit card debt. That's basically my "food" money. Starving artist...for reals.
I remember when $50 was nothing. It was not even enough to get my hair done. Now...I'm like FIFTY DOLLARS! Lol
I get dressed and made-up to leave the house and it makes me feel better for a minute although my make-up is diminishing day by day. This lady sitting next to me on the train is staring at me....for like 20 minutes. I look at her, she rolls her eyes. What the fucking fuck? (My favorite line fro StepBrothers)
I guess this post will be everywhere. I really feel like crying today. Not being where you want to be and trying to change it is hard business.
Thinking of a master plan cause ain't nothing but sweat in the palm of my hand.
I believe in God. I believe He helps us but I also believe that we've got to put some motion into it. He doesn't just make it rain (dollars).
I need a Divine Intervention right now.
It could always be worse. I'm not on the street or begging for change on the train. How would that look- full face of make-up begging for change...lol
I'm trying not to fall into a depression. I feel myself sliding into one..fighting fighting fighting...
I have more but ehhhh maybe lateer.
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