Natural Blues

That is my absolute most favorite song of Moby's.

I can't sleep.

I don't have WORRIES but I have a few things on the brain. Plus, I'm chalking it up to hormonal changes, since Mother Nature has now confirmed that, no I am not knocked up.

Woo hoo!

Imagine, after all the conflama, I'm carrying Aussie's spawn.

Shudder to think. Lol.

Well, what's going on with me?

In 2 days, I will be 23. Shoot! I almost said 24, lol. I've always wanted to be older and I keep racing the clock. I still get carded to buy lottery tickets and don't even let me try to indulge in a spirit or 2...

I'm hopeful. I'm excited. I'm content.

I have a plan for myself. I've been sticking to it (more than I have before) and while I only have $80 is the bank and $20 in my pocket...my refrigerator is stocked and my lights/gas/phone are still on and the rent is paid.

I'm blessed.

Things usually fall apart around this time. Year before last, I got robbed 2 days before my bday. My then boyfriend didn't get me anything because he didn't have a job and he thought the place where I had my bday dinner was "uppity." Him and his brother mocked it the whole time they were there and I ended up having to pay $175 because people didn't have enough money to cover what they drank/ate. Yup, 21st Bday sucked ass... Last year, I was happy it was my bday because I was so broke I was hoping someone would buy my meal. The day before, I found out my ex-bishop killed someone and was in jail for murder in the 1st. The day after my bday, me and BFF stole my mom's car and it overheated in the middle of the Brooklyn Bridge (!!!) making Homeland Security stop traffic to help us. Fun times...(Only half-sarcasm there)

Now, I'm thinking of all the friends I've lost and gained...

That's a post for another day, I think. Its 2am. I have to get up at 8 and I'm nowhere near sleepy....

This should make for an interesting day tomorrow.
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