Pump the Heartbreaks!

I've been posting like a madwoman and I have at least 1 or 2 posts in me.
Read this, and this first!

Olu BBM'ed me after we spoke about his faux girlfriend.

"If you're as real as you say you are, I'm going to make you my girl."

I called him. I told him that was nice but I just met him. I don't have expectations for people. There are things we have to account for which was compatibility and such.

He said he wasn't worried about him. He knew how great he was and if I'm as great as he thinks I am, then we should b together. He majored in Politics, Economics and Law and minored in Psychology.

For some reason, that scared me. I don't like when people try to get into my head.

I want to go slooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I said.

I'm down with that, he said.

We'll see.

In an unrelated note...on Wednesday morning, before all this stuff with Olu and Archer.
I washed my face, threw on some sweats, my ankle length bubble coat and hat and ran out the house. I just needed to get something from the store and I usually look like crap when I do. As I turned the corner, I saw Blair.

He looked great.

His skin was nice and smooth, looking like a dark chocolate Hershey's bar. He had on a tight sweater and sweats. He had a cell phone in his hand and in the other a gym belt. He was coming from the gym obviously...His body is tight.

I felt like I was being stabbed in the heart. We spoke our hellos and that was it.

I didn't look back.

I thought to myself how I never wanted to feel like that again. Like.....wanting something from someone they will never give me.

I told myself I would remember that feeling.