Wait Til You See My Smile

I am in love with that Alicia Keys song.

It, of course, has nothing to do with the post.

I had another date with Carter tonight. It was a double date with J and his lady. (Yes, J is gay and he's dating a girl that looks like a boy) We were trying to get into a free screening of a movie that comes out on Friday. We waited out in the cold for an hour and they didn't let us in.

Everytime I was going to make a move on Carter, J would come by and say something. It was something out of a sitcom.

So.. *drumroll please*
Carter and I was making out a lot tonight. I was touching him. He was touching me but he respected my boundaries which is some type of Jedi mind trick because that made me want to push the envelope more. I kept touching him by the little V those guys have...clearly, that was his spot. He told me to stop..I had to control myself...what gives???

Things are so comfortable with him. I think that's what it is. He reminds me of me. J was like his balls were frozen. I asked Carter if his were too. With a straight face, he was like..nope. I could say whatever.

I'm trying to be Spock about it because he lives far away, he's leaving on Thursday and he has STUFF going on.

Oddly enough, I was talking to a guy I'm crushing on on FB chat today. He reminds me of someone who is so pious. Mainly because he doesn't talk about his relationships. For a moment, I thought he was a virgin. I asked him if he were celibate and he said no. I was genuinely surprised. He loves God but sex is a struggle. I don't think I will continue my celibacy after my year is over. I will take what I've learned and will be more responsible with sex. I will try to abstain as much as possible. I'm holding out with new people as long as possible. Being celibate has sifted the wheat from the hay. That is the one thing I will remember from this experience.

I'm supposed to have drinks with TD tomorrow. That should be an experience.

Are you guys loving me blogging everyday? Wowsers.