Thursday, June 11, 2009

Fml

I think the weather has the ability to really eff with a person's mood. Why is it then, I want to move to moody Seattle and dreary Londontown?

Today, I just felt like I should resign myself to dreaming and make a career out of something. Sure I'd be miserable for the rest of my days but so what? I'd have security....

Then I smacked myself.

I'm sure I would die. If I really really did that...I would die. Its just...I'm really broke this week. I missed 2 days of work and my check is reflecting that. Iknow God will make a way and I can stretch the hell out of a dollar. But...there are THINGS I want. Like black lame leggings from Torrid for $25 or to be able to buy movie tickets for me and my friend today. Or say I'm going to London in September instead of drooling over the airfare on BritishAirways.com ($525 round trip right now...)

What's worse is that I'm the reason behind all my troubles. Me. I haven't been wise in my spending.

Yet, I keep making the same mistakes over and over again. Why? Why! Why?!

I don't know.

I have to resolve in myself to change.

You can't spend like you're Rihanna when you have a budget like Rapunzel!

Arrrgh! It'll be okay...
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2 comments:

Young woman on a journey said...

it will be okay. but i feel you. luckily for you, you have a generous soul and people like you always invite goodness to you. so i'm not so worried for you. you'll get all that and more and you won't have to die for it.

MISS BEE said...

I feel you on this post totally. Why do we keep making the same mistakes over again? I constantly ask myself that once I receive my paycheck & I see whats left after I pay bills. Why keep resorting to using a credit card if you dont want to pay the $ back, or it will put you in bigger debt paying the $ bk. we all have problems w $