could you not wait one hour

i give of myself
until
i have nothing left
i give myself
the
scraps of sanity

i tell myself over and over
that i will persevere
endure

as i swim against the tide
with each stroke
i become fatigued
i can not yield to the waves crashing against me

i can nt surrender myself to the see

i must
i shall
i will

and i wonder
why
i give
the better part of myself
to friends
to lovers
to brothers
sisters

until there is nothing left
but the bare bones

i look into my own eyes
in cloudy mirrors
and i understand the meaning of
growing pains

and i wonder
if i will change

then i look myself in the eyes
i'm getting stronger by the day