Sunday, January 25, 2009

Dear John

Not the traditional 'Dear John' but..eh, I like it. At first, I thought it too harsh but I felt like I needed to get some stuff off my chest.

Aussie,

I have never been more angry at any man I've ever dated before as I am with you at this moment.

Men say they want a good girl. They want someone who is stable, preferably no kids, has some things going for herself.

But its bullshit.

You had that in me twice. You said u didn't want a girl to use you for money. You wanted someone that was going somewhere in life. You said you wanted to try again. You said you wouldn't punish me for what you ex did to you.

You said so many things and I believed you.

You are a liar. You've played so many games and its ridiculous.

I've never asked you for anything financial. I've never tried to work you for anything. All I've ever asked of you was to work on a relationship. I've never done anything to deserve how you've treated me. I don't know why you don't even have the decency to return a text or a phone call or even try and spend time with me.

All I can think is you have someone else. Someone who is more important than me or has been there longer. At this point, I don't even care about it as far as why or who or anything. I just hope you haven't given me anything.

I hope you're safer in the future. At this point, the only thing you have going for you is between your legs. If you fuck that up, you might as well kill yourself.

There is no need to respond. Any messages you send me will not be opened. It will be deleted right away. Don't call or text, there is nothing you can ever say to make me have any level of respect for you.

I don't wish any harm on you but I do hope that karma truly exists and you are treated over and over again in the same way you have treated me.

Fuck you.

I mean every word,

Nina.
Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile

6 comments:

JaeSpenc said...

I Love it. Sometimes you have to just get it off your chest ya know?
Good Luck girlie.

Young woman on a journey said...

damn. that was serious! man i wish karma was as real to others as it is to me. we are all in this process of healing. good luck girl!

monmon said...

u just have to let go and dont punish urself if he isnt treating you the way he should be!

Trish said...

I agree. Most of the time, we just need the release for ourselves. You tried, thats what's important.

Anonymous said...

nice...now you have to hold up your end of the bargin and not respond! good start

Kenya Says said...

Anonymous is right on...just don't respond- I've been there it's though- but I'd just click delete.