Monday, November 10, 2008

Breathe.

Today, between my period, the craziness of last night, and the pressures of the work-day, I feel like my head is going to explode.

I’m feeling uneasy inside and it’s largely because of Aussie.

I feel as though I’ve hurt him and I didn’t mean to and all I need from him is to tell me he is okay, that we are okay.

I know we are.

I’m just so messy emotionally today. I don’t even LOOK like myself today – no make-up, my hair is all over the place, my outfit is blah. I’m a wreck.

I want Aussie to hug me in his big man arms. I want him to call me Gorgeous Nina like he does and tell me all is fine. I want to sleep and wake up tomorrow and be okay with the world.

I want my period to go away.

Why can’t anything go my way?

2 comments:

Sha Boogie said...

i wonder the same thing after a stupid fight with my boo..'why cant anything go my way??' geesh!

Mammi-Ama Ofori - The Purple Vintage Space Princess said...

uuuuuuuugh man! Have I been there!
Especially when you have you period (or when its on the horizon....) it seems like everything is going wrong. God forbid your man act a fool, right?
In these moments of stress I always try to think of at least one thing that made me smile that day and focus HARD on it and it makes me feel good. Sometimes, its hard to pull out a positive moment of your day, if you can't then think about something or someone that makes you feel amazing. Its a good little exercise that I do to get me back on track... even with my period pains. OY VEY!
Loving your blog, girl!

P.V.S.P