Sad

"I admit I still fantasize about you." - Kanye West,

I just want to wallow in silence and listen to my thoughts and the sound of my teeth grinding together. That's what I do when I'm stressed.

I feel as though I've been slapped.

And like there was some big test I failed. I know I did.

I'm not ready to let go. I was just getting used to the idea of a partner. Of a reason to smile when love songs came on my iPod.

and tomorrow, it will be gone?

Is it because of me? Am I the one at fault? Did I not do my part?

I did my best. I think.

I know. I did.

I learned with Afroman, you can't force a puppy to be a dog. So, I must let go gracefully.

But, this hurts.
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